Out of the four things Jesus asked of his disciples that we talked about today: hearing Him, turning to Him, trusting Him, and following Him, I would have to say trusting God with all of me is the hardest to do. In fact, I think we all may struggle with that.
Picture our faith in God as a scale in a bathroom. To truly meet the four things discussed today we must be able to stand with two feet on the scale; not one foot or half our weight but all of us. We must trust God with all our weight which is the culmination of our entire being.
Can we ever fully step into the scale of faith? Are we capable of relinquishing control in our minds to put it all on God? I can put on God the need I have for control about the things I truly can’t control. I can’t control the speed of the car in front of me so I learned, through His grace, to stop letting it bother me. Same can be said of how fast the line is moving at the store or bank, and roll with it and being peaceful while some squirm. Does that mean I have put my need for control on God? Or have I simply put my impatience on Him?
Control is insidious because it stems from fear. Fear is the one thing we can’t rationalize and therefore we try to position it away from us. In doing this we show our comforts as strengths, in the hope of overshadowing our fears in the aggregate. Strong battlements do nothing to fix the hole in the middle, they just protect and hide the hole; in turn clouding the whole of who we are.
So what can we do as a faith community that will help to place our full weight on the scales, fear and all? If I had that answer I would love to let you know but alas I do not. I know for myself, recognizing my fears and finding the source of the fears through prayer has helped me but in a way it only helps me and not others who suffer and think they are alone.
Maybe God has placed us in this community so we can realize we are not alone. Maybe God has asked us to share with each other and grow as a community in love and discipleship. Maybe we are incapable of standing on the scale of faith as individuals but as a community, through communication and openness, we can stand strong on the scale with two feet and no crutch.